Exile.

"Listen and pay attention! Do not be arrogant, for the Lord has spoken. Give glory to the Lord your God before it's too late. Acknowledge Him before He brings darkness upon you, causing you to stumble and fall on the darkening mountains. For then, when you look for light, you will find only terrible darkness and gloom. And if you still refuse to listen, I will weep alone because of your pride. My eyes will overflow with tears because the Lord's flock will be led into exile."
(Jeremiah 13:15-17)

So if you look at my older posts, you will see one titled "Stupid Israelites = Me."
This is still true today.

You see, I honestly believe that God is the same today as He was back then. He still deals with us in the exact same way, it's just shown differently because of culture. God created His people to cling to Him and love Him. When we don't, which is always because of pride, God warns us and then sends us into exile. I've been there for a couple of weeks now. I feel for the Israelites. Exile is not fun.

No, I have not been kicked out of my country and had to move to another, but I have removed myself from the spirit of God. I completely exiled myself. My pride, however, was not necessarily thinking too highly of myself. In this case I was thinking too lowly of myself. I wasn't being humble, I was being prideful that my sin was just too much.

Tonight I broke down crying because I miss God so much. I don't want to be in exile anymore.